hmmm, on the one hand i'd like to directly allow people here to invite their friends, since that'd be nice and would be a good way to expand this place just a little bit
on the other hand it'd be awkward because i'd want to Vibe Check them, and the promise of an invite being denied because they didn't pass my arbitrary vibe check would kinda feel shitty
okay oops i had to do this again actually, i forgot that higher CPU counts added more lines to the config file, so i yeeted those out so we're not trying to allocate more resources than we should lol
something that i personally hope to avoid is to create an environment where people are afraid of me as an admin or owner of this server
lots of other places on fedi make it so people are scared of admins of other instances since they wield so much power and influence they can snuff out other people they don't like
and i want to avoid that as much as possible, the power i hold here is to just keep things afloat, and to ensure that a safe space is made here, not one where i just ban people because i don't like them, or exert my influence over other instances to get rid of people i don't like.
never in a million years would i wish to chase off someone from here, i know from personal experience how fucking awful and soul-crushing it feels, especially as a vulnerable transfemme.
with my non-porn art i only ever draw it when i want to evoke some kind of emotion i'm feeling, which gets hard when most of my emotions have been just Sad and i don't wanna do only that lol
but yeah i just think it's funny that i'll most likely have drawn more cub art this year than last year, and it might be by twice as much by the time this year's over, who knows lol
to be fair i think the reason is i've started to accept that drawing cub art is a lot more creatively simple, of course i inject as much creativity as i can in my pieces (last piece was semi-inspired by the fact i wanted to apologize for this instance keeps exploding lol), but generally the core concept is "how do i show this cutie's junk", which is pretty simple to do once i figure out a pose :p
