Venting
Not doing great emotionally. Got a Dr. Appointment tomorrow with my PCP to discuss potential options and outreach for my ongoing medical needs but I have virtually zero confidence that it will lead to meaningful change. Kinda going through another spiral to be honest... Feeling terrible... It's crazy how to some rich assholes $25k is chump change to them but to me it would be life changing yet I can't get anyone who could potentially help to give me the time of day. I feel like I'm being crushed under the weight of my own desperation. Fuck this horrid hellscape known as America, fuck the doctor who mutilated me and scarred me for life, and fuck my parents for consenting to it; going as far as to expressly carry me off to a clinic to have it done.
