The spicier meat, with a side of bacon wrapped scallops and ice cold water. This is where I talk and draw about the Freaky (loli shota cub). Sometimes I also talk about general sex topics.
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I now have something visual to show. Amphon! I got a general sense of his hair that I like, but there isn't much of a shorthand for it. He has a scarf, a long coat with some large pockets (or so I intended but I ran out of time), and pants... Not sure what these are called but they aren't jeans. They also have pockets on the sides, and the pants is held by a belt. The pockets are about medium large, and he carries tools in them, like knives, even screwdrivers. He should probably have gloves too. (I referred to this image i.pinimg.com/originals/80/e1/c1/80e1c140a172815e2e988b39f3dab87d.jpg)
Trying to get across a boy who keeps to himself, but isn't fearful (except in social situations). He also has a cuteness element with drooping eyes and white freckles. I will work out a color scheme later when I get home.
P. S. It is actually quite difficult to draw a neutral pose, in general and for the sake of reference... Surprisingly poses with more movement implied are easier to gesture out, though that still comes with challenges (foreshortening).
(deleted and redrafted) I think one/oni loli/shota is a balancing act, you have to figure out how to give each character enough focus... I tend to find oneeshota doesn't give much attention to the boy. It's so much about the woman, who has big tits, and you kind of wonder if the boy is just self insert. Oneloli kind of balances it more, as does onishota, and oniloli is kind of mixed, but tends to focus on the girl more.
When I say focus I think I mean characterization, and space. How many panels do they take up? How much do we know about their personalities? Well, the thing that probably determines this the most is the author's tastes. Oniloli and oneshota is probably made and read by straight men mostly, so it makes sense they would feel more inclines to focus on the woman and girl. Though I wonder what the appeal of shota is to them? In adult F/M the man is also out of focus, to the point of being faceless sometimes, but the shota still has a face even if they aren't focused on.
Thank u to whoever introduced me to Itou Hachi that time I asked for oneloli recs... I like how she builds relationship in her stories and the small amounts of worldbuilding making it feel, "real" in a sense
I hope Young Tiki gets into that new FE mobile game and I hope she also gets a shadow beast form and that it is hot so I can imagine her pounding pussy.
dream, bestiality x shotaSo... Had a dream last night (this morning?) where Eldigan preps and surprises his son Ares, who is a young boy in this dream, with a horse... or rather, for the horse to have sex with him. it's indeed very surprising and overwhelming for Ares. Eldigan is comforting him through it, but also enjoying the situation.
I enjoy the scenario and associated emotion, but it is a little odd to me, with these characters.
Tbh I take blocks very personally even though I'm not supposed to. But like, I am pretty sure I have rejection sensitive dysphoria so any time I get a perception of being rejected it Feels Bad. This is not something I can control. I can remind myself logically that it does not matter but that doesn't stop the ruminating or the anxiety
You can quite plainly see a difference in the internet "culture" or however you call it between the start and now. Sure, people were more "-phobic" but also you like, didn't have to interact with those people. They were in their separate area and you were in yours, with your people who actually, were gay and trans and made all the lovely weird fanfic and had fun. Instead of being stuffed into one big fat Twitter. You know like, you would have one forum with those guys and another forum with your guys. It was just common sense to keep to yourself and foster your community. Also, obviously the internet being homophobic and transphobic was a microcosm of (English-speaking) society at the time. Much like media! This is not news, to me...
And even then, did we have these people calling the fujoshi actual rapists or pedophiles over their yaoi ships? As far as I can tell that's something that emerged more in the last decade. I'm sure it happened occasionally, but not to the scale of now. As an example (from personal experience/memory so take with a grain of salt), there was a deviantArt group for incest ships, and another one against incest ships. The latter basically just talked about how much they didn't like those ships, but they didn't go out and harass the people who did. And the former said to just ignore what the latter group did.
Also, I think that the age range of internet users skewed older in the past? But I'm not too sure since there also use to be more websites catered specifically for kids, like MMOs. Which was another advantage, there were more places like this, and in having those websites there was also more of a push for teaching internet safety consistently. I remember things like not sharing personal info being drilled in, which I can't say is as common now because lots of younger people post identifying info too readily. Though unfortunately children were targeted by predators on these websites and MMOs... It's a lot to unpack.
I think the big thing is that the older internet didn't feel as corporatized as it does now. There was always that sense of it, as companies always had websites and ads. But again, it didn't feel as in your face. If you didn't want to see it, you just didn't go there. Even the couple of bigger websites that were run by corps didn't have all the same "isms" they do now. YouTube of 2008 is not run the same as YouTube of 2025. Neither deviantArt, or... uh, what else was around then? Lol
Well, I think another big thing that separates new and old internet was the way you found things. You had to have a bit more ingenuity, more determination, maybe, to find your niches. And that made the internet as a whole feel more exciting; you never knew what you would find, and your woeld would become more open. This is very much a double edged sword. Because you can find truely beautiful and genuinely horrifying things. And it probably also contributed to the whole "-phobic" thing, like lots of straight white men who have only ever traveled 50 miles from their hometown being unable to comprehend the idea of a furry. But again the other edge is the closeted trans lesbian finding out that there are other people that feel that feel the same way.
Well, the main takeaway I get is that the web is a very complex and changing invention, and we have all changed with it. I do personally think the older web was "better", with aestericks, and I would take its caveats over the ones of today.
Scumsuck blocked me for leaving annoying comments, I guess. Even though I am pretty sure I had like, one other conversation with them (about merchandise ethics) and there was no indication that I was being annoying. This time I just brought up how one sided conversation about old internet is. What was so annoying, exactly? That I wasn't just corroborating and agreeing with everything said like every other reply? What is the deal, man.
Making hair for this boy is hard... Originally he would have bangs covering both eyes, but I decided one eye looked better. I really want his head to be all scruffy, like bedhead in Animal Crossing. Perhaps he should have a beanie hat, or something similar? Also gave him freckles close to his eyes, and somewhat puffy cheeks. I did all this at work, on post it notes... I'm home now but I don't feel like drawing humans right now
I am imagining their eventual dynamic going from a mutual partnership, where they learn from each other, to a found family incestuous, of sorts, as they eventually have an offspring... gotta be a little weird with it
Was busy working on my site, so I didn't do much designing again, but I do want to think of some details about him. I already decided his name would be Amphon. I think his clothes would be just a bit dirty, but not so much so, perhaps being too dirty makes him nervous. The clothing fabrics are a mix of brow, orange, and green. I think it would have a lot of pockets.
I want to convey his shyness and ingenuity through his looks, but I think it would also better be portrayed through his mannerisms. He moves carefully, fidgets a lot. Rather sensitive to smells and textures.
Undecided on his complexion, but I'm thinking more on the tan side? And I keep imagining ginger, curled hair. I wonder if those things would clash, color wise. Well, I have to visualize it soon.
I also have been thinking about the monster. I decided to call it Wattana. It's an anomaly, an old experiment, mutated over thousands of years. I also want it to be referred to with ae/aer, a neopronoun originally intended for aliens of a "third sex". For the purpose of identifying how out there it is compared to most other beings, and its own internal world. For its design, this is what I want to adopt: www.deviantart.com/malibyri/art/something-different-ADOPTABLE-OPEN-1188121798 (hopefully the artist sees my comment...)
Thinking more about this society-less world. There would be some remnants of society, I suppose. I don't think there would be an economy, and I am wondering how much merchantilism would exist. I don't know how valuable currency would be. Perhaps trade is more likely. I think it also depends on how scarce resources are. I don't think they would be too scarce since I don't imagine the population being high.
I was also wondering about how "advanced" technology would be. Imagine at the time of the Apocalypse, it was as advanced as it is now in our real world. But it would have been millennia ago. Some knowledge would surely be passed down, but I don't know how readily available electricity would be, so I am not sure about motor vehicles being in use. Analog vehicles would be used though, like bicycles.
This could fit in as one of the planets in my galaxy, or as a separate story. I lean a little towards the latter because I can't imagine interaction with other planets, and I want that to be part of the galaxy; interplanetary relations and exploration. But with this place being so desolate... Eh, details to work out later, right now I want to think of this new world and its story by itself.
Edit: I have decided this will be it's own universe. Working title is "Millennia Later".
