sorry for this like, vent. just came up on my mind since... as i said, it just feels like i'm walking on eggshells. i just have this creeping sense that, at any given moment, this will all be taken away from me. ...because that nearly did happen. and i'm still shaken by it.
it's tough typing this stuff out, under the fear that more stuff will be litigated and actively cause the very thing i fear to happen, but it's hard for me not to be earnest about my emotions.
