irl lewd, pee, don't try this at home(?)right before i fapped i drank like, a loooot of soda, way more than i usually do
...but i didn't do it on purpose, 2 hours in and my bladder was actually hurting a little bit lmfao, so i had to cum to go and pee. was kinda hot edging it though
and for the Pee Freaks out there, i was peeing for like, a solid minute and a half lol
i still find it bizarre there are charlie kirk defenders on baraag
i don't know what bootlicking a grave gets these people, especially when if the guy didn't get sniped, he would be first in line to shoot them for being "degenerates" lmfao
@p11@BunnyQueen nah not some random guy boosting the "stop celebrating the death of the guy directly responsible for the deaths of queers" post trying to tell a queer this shit 😭
it's good when nazis die actually, go fuck yourself lmfao
@astral_haze i think i kinda sorta got what you were saying x3
but yeah no, enby characters are also woefully under-represented, can't help but to feel it's for very similar reasons
i'm non-binary myself (though i say "transfem" a lot since i'm very femme leaning, just not completely), and have some non-binary characters that i should definitely draw more
@EscBoy@PawSquad could also report the account, maybe the baraag admin will remote suspend the individual account lol (which means they will be banned from interacting with baraag users)
sorry for this like, vent. just came up on my mind since... as i said, it just feels like i'm walking on eggshells. i just have this creeping sense that, at any given moment, this will all be taken away from me. ...because that nearly did happen. and i'm still shaken by it.
it's tough typing this stuff out, under the fear that more stuff will be litigated and actively cause the very thing i fear to happen, but it's hard for me not to be earnest about my emotions.
i think this is just a post saying that i'm a transfem cub artist, and by damnit i'm proud of that.
there's not many of us, even in the queer-centric spaces, and it's sad to say i have a great idea of why.
i hope one day the beautiful art transfems want to make, to engage with, and so much more, can be done in spaces where we feel welcome. not spaces where we have to sit down and shut up for talking too loudly, for having nuanced viewpoints that don't jive with everyone, or god fucking forbid we speak up for ourselves.
it sometimes does feel like i'm walking on eggshells in this space. and that shouldn't ever be the case for a community full of artists who should know what it's like to be one call-out post away from their entire life being destroyed.
i honestly and earnestly hope that transfems can feel more welcome in the lolisho/cub community, cuz as it stands... i don't know many transfems here. especially ones that continue to exist in this space.
there's a lot at hand as to why we're not that prevalent here, so many interweaving and complex discussions that it's not worth trying to talk about in just a single post. at that point it just breaks down into general feminist discussion points.
it's a god damn battle just trying to stay alive, and try to understand everything ever that happens to us, i wouldn't be surprised to know there are a lot more transfem people in this community... that just don't want to signal as such, because that makes them a giant target to literally everyone, queer or not, and within this very community or not.
i guess this is moreso a post complaining about transmisogyny, but it does directly impact my ability to interact with this space, and it's impacted me in ways i couldn't have accounted for.
i feel uniquely isolated and alone here, even with my own instance i've built, with a big motivator being cultivating a space for other transfems to safely interact with this stuff. and solidarity only goes so far when push comes to shove, and suddenly i'm being alienated by people i once trusted in this space.
y'know what's kinda weird? how many instances defederate my very instance... yet don't defed aethy, and hell sometimes baraag
like to be clear, this is all because they defed us for the lolisho/cub art that's allowed here, not for any other reason lol.
is it just because i exist in normal fedi spaces, thus my name is known as The Evil Cub Artist, and as such my instance is lumped in? i can only imagine that's the reason why, and if that really is the case, then that's incredibly pathetic on fedi admin's parts lmao
like idc if an instance defeds us for allowing loli art, it's just bizarre that my instance ends up being the only one on a defed list for that rationale sometimes
and ngl i can't help but to feel there's some transmisogynistic angle to that too
